Cut for far scarier thoughts about my Narnia fannishness
I read Narnia very young compared to some of my friends (though I suspect that's not unusual for those of us in fandom!) I was 6 and I was very ill. So I had a lot of time to spend lying around in bed dreaming up stories about the Narnia characters.
When I saw the trailer for the movie I was instantly transported to that time and that world, which was a great relief to me because I had long feared a movie being made that would spoil my childish visual memories of that world, long buried but not lost. So far, what I've seen of the movie fits well with my own internal vision.
Transported back to that time in my childhood, I'm a little freaked to discover just how similar my excitement then was to my current squee-ing in fandom. 21 years and little has changed except sexual awareness.
When I read Narnia I wanted to *be* Lucy and *court* Peter. The fact they were siblings? Not really a big problem to an only child. It did occur to me that it was a little wrong to want Peter to kiss Lucy after he rescued her from the White Witch, but I got over that pretty quickly... They were the most attractive characters, damn it: they *had* to get together.
My mind was a little vague about what exactly would transpire after they kissed, but in my made-up stories there was always a lot of snuggling. And daring adventures, and rescuing one another.
Freakier still? My favourite book of the series was The Horse and His Boy, which if you remember features twin brothers, one brought up as a prince, one as a servant, who are reunited in an epic battle. Slashy much? Yuh-huh and I loved it. That's what Peter was missing: a twin brother to play with! I was completely disinterested in the girl in the story and couldn't get enough of the prince and his charmingly decadent life. I was just a little disappointed in the ending... the spark really went out of things once Corin accepted his brother as co-Prince in such an angst-free manner.
So there you have it. Apparently my six-year-old mind held the seeds of slashdom and incest-fic. Disturbed much.