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28 October 2005 @ 11:27 pm
SV 5.05 Thirst  
Well I feel I sharpened my EssayGirl pencils for nothing this week...

Sorry guys - I got nothing. This episode left we with practically nothing to articulate about. This is all I got:

1. Smallville writers: I don't often bitch about you but if you're going to do a Buffy shoutout episode, make sure at least one of you knows the show well and can pull it off. Please. (Else reconsider the idea entirely or you'll piss off old Buffy fans like me.)

2. James and Michael: Keep doing what you're doing. Good work!

3. Tom: get thyself to a gym. Oh but excellent work on swooning like a girl when Lana kissed your neck - the way you closed your eyes was HOT.

So instead of an ep-based essay, I'm going to put my energies this week into a Lex-focussed essay I've had on the backburner and ... um ... my fic.

It is of course possible that I am doing SV an injustice and if any of my f'list found something interesting in this week's ep, please hop on and comment here! Over to you guys...

I did have a real downer of a week. Maybe that's why I just couldn't get into this ep.

So yesterday I was sitting in my living room with the back door open for the cat to wander in and out. And this distraut girl came running in. She must have come from the back alleyway and pushed open our gate. Before I knew it she was staggering into my kitchen calling for help saying someone was chasing her. She had cuts and bruises on her arms and knees.

Once I was closer, I could see that she was heavily drugged. She was hysterical, talking incessantly, shaking and generally displaying extremely distressed behaviour. I locked the door so she felt safer. I got her to sit down and gave her a glass of water. I offered to call the police.

Once she was calmer she was able to tell me that she was a paranoid schizophrenic and also diagnosed with ADD. She said her mental illnesses were drug-induced and that she'd been using since she was eight. She had four kids - three different fathers - none of the kids lived with her. She told me about childbirth and being beaten up by her ex-partner. She told me about trying to quit the drugs and the alcohol. She told me about her current partner.

It became clear that she had been having a panic attack and she admitted that there was no real threat, that she was scared and confused and lonely. She told me she had no female friends and no friends who weren't users. She asked if I did drugs. I said no. She said 'oh that's good!' with a look of longing on her face. She told me she wanted her kids to have a better life than she'd had. I said 'your life's not over yet' but my heart wasn't in it. She replied 'you're right' and talked about believing in the good deep inside people and not what you see on the surface, and about living life for now, not the past.

She was so desperate to talk I wasn't sure we'd ever get her to leave. I tricked her. I said my boyfriend and I had to go out. She tried to leave the way she'd come in but couldn't find the gate in the dark. She tried to climb the fence and my boyfriend had to run out and guide her to the gate. I felt awful letting her leave like that but she insisted that she didn't want to call anyone and I got the sense that she was embarrassed at the fuss she had caused.

Earlier she'd shown me the track marks on her arms and the cut marks. She said the voices in her head made her cut herself. She said that it was ok if we watched her to make sure she didn't steal stuff. When my bf left the room for a moment she called out 'yes, it's ok, lock your stuff up away from me, I'm a junkie' and then launched into a long speech about the fact that she never stole from friends, not even when she was using heavily. I wanted to believe her. But part of me didn't and I locked the doors and windows after she left and turned the outdoor lights out, hoping that if she did have any intentions of returning, she wouldn't be able to find us again. Seriously - she was that disoriented - I don't think she could have.

This experience was difficult for me. Before she left I hugged her because she asked me too and it was all I could think to do for her. I was deeply moved by her story, but also unsettled and a little afraid because my own private space had been violated.

The world is a horrible place. Some people don't ever get a break. I hope she gets hers. Please, if you've read this, send good thoughts to her.
tragicllyhiptragicllyhip on October 28th, 2005 02:12 pm (UTC)
my god..yes it would be really hard to enjoy much of anything after that..thats horrible, and I'll send every good vibe, thought, whatever I can muster.
As for Smallville, it was a good fun, very fun episode, that had me laughing out loud. From the moment the story was being told (or part of it) from Chloe's snarky perspective, I knew they were going to get the campy right.
And the vampire sluts served a purpose--it gave Chloe the story that would help her land her dream job and exposed another one of Lex's experiments and moved Clark yet another step closer to trusting Dr. Fine.
The Lex/Fine stuff was fantastic, it was so cool to see Lex bested, a position he's never been in before, someone who basically found his threats to be vapid at best. And the Lex/Fine/Clark triangle is being played well.
The Clana moments were sweet, and I loved seeing Clark turned on by the neck play, he acted like a sweet, slightly befuddled boyfriend, and a little needy (calling quite a bit) and it was cute.
So maybe give yourself some time and watch it again when things aren't so dark in your personal life.
K, Bop or Boppy--take your pick!: Clark Love Lexbop_radar on October 28th, 2005 11:39 pm (UTC)
That icon is so cute!! Sex without super powers!

I actually did like the Chloe snark. That was ok - although it threw me at first because the framing device was very un-Smallville. But then I went with it...

I agree Lex/Fine was fantastic and I'm really looking forward to seeing this developed...

I think I'll take your advice! Thank you!! It's so unlike me to feel so flat and have nothing to say after an ep. I think RL definitely contributed.
BUT HARRY STYLESestrella30 on October 28th, 2005 02:51 pm (UTC)

I actually did find some interesting stuff in last nights ep (or at least *I* thought it was interesting) and I just posted in my lj if you're interested.

(mostly along the lines of Lex and kryptonite and Clark and Clark's blood, etc *g*)
K, Bop or Boppy--take your pick!: fandom SOHbop_radar on October 29th, 2005 03:52 am (UTC)
Cool! I will mosey on over... thanks for letting me know.
rhiannonherorhiannonhero on October 28th, 2005 03:05 pm (UTC)
First, re: Smallville, I'm sorry you didn't enjoy the episode or get much out of it. I thought it was a great deal of fun and also very informative about Lana. I'll probably post something about that later, specifically about the symbolism of Lana being a vampire.

Re: the rest, whoa. What an intense and upsetting experience. I'll send good thoughts her way.
K, Bop or Boppy--take your pick!: Ericabop_radar on October 29th, 2005 03:53 am (UTC)
Thank you.

I'm interested to hear your thoughts about Lana and I'll watch out for your post.
nehellania on October 28th, 2005 04:48 pm (UTC)
I concur wholeheartedly about the ep.

I'm definitely sending good thoughts to her. That's an absolutely awful lot in life and I really hope that someday she gets the help she needs and deserves and her life can get back on track.

Seems like you handled the situation quite well. She's lucky to have found you. You seem to have handled what was an awkward and odd situation with grace and compassion. Good you you, K.

Also - a bunch of us at the MAS are joining the clois comm. You're watching it already, so you beat us to it. Wanna join with us? hee.

*hugs* You're a wonderful person K. I feel lucky to know you.
K, Bop or Boppy--take your pick!: Clois hugbop_radar on October 29th, 2005 03:56 am (UTC)
Thank you honey! I appreciate your thoughts on what happened - I didn't really expect everyone to read all that but I was just having a lot of trouble processing it and it helped to write about it. I think it was confronting because she was so self-aware about her condition but was trapped in it.

And yay about Clois comm! I will totally join... i have been hovering around the edges there as you saw. We need to get momre energy into the Clois vibe! Yay - excellent!

I feel lucky to know you too, Jen: you are always there when one of us needs you! *hugs*
nehellania on October 29th, 2005 05:06 am (UTC)
Oh more energy for the Clois vibe totally won't be a problem. Hee.

You know K, I could be there for you to help with your banner if you'd actually come on Yahoo! *hugs*
Jane Bluestockingj_bluestocking on October 28th, 2005 09:36 pm (UTC)
I haven't been watching SV this year, but I tuned into this episode partway through, and saw from Yahoo television that it has been written by Steven DeKnight, who used to write for Buffy (Blood Ties, Seeing Red, a few others) and Angel (he wrote one of my favorite Angel episodes). So I stayed to watch, and found it rather fun. Of course, I have low expectations of the show these days, so it doesn't take much.
K, Bop or Boppy--take your pick!: Michael suavebop_radar on October 28th, 2005 11:37 pm (UTC)
It was written by SDK? *boggles* I'm staggered...
I didn't think the vampires were handled right at all and the comic tone was off for me, but there you go.

Maybe I'll take the advice others have given here and rewatch when I'm in a better mental space!
Alison: clark_towel pilotacampbell on October 29th, 2005 12:55 am (UTC)
I just re-watched and did a post of sorts. I dub this ep the low point so far of S5, mainly 'cause of the Cloying Clana and the dumb and offputting A plot. I'm Buffy-ignorant, though.
K, Bop or Boppy--take your pick!: Michael suavebop_radar on October 29th, 2005 04:04 am (UTC)
Yeah... it was the low point for me. I found the A plot implausible - their way of linking the vampires to the meteor-rocks was clumsy, I felt. For me, the vampires didn't well in Smallville but they also weren't classic Buffy vamps either - there was no wit and no classic Buffy twist. Ho hum. I'll let it go...